Why

During my journey thus far, I've heard the word "why" come about, mainly from me.

• Why can't I lose weight faster?
• Why can't I eat food that taste good?
• Why do I have to go to the gym?
• Why are the only places open when I'm off work are fast food restaurants?

Those are just to name a few.  It didn't hit me till several months in, that the real why question that is important is..

Why am I doing this?….

I'm doing this because that girl in the picture above, was not happy.  She was severely depressed and found food as an escape for loneliness.  I was that girl.

Growing up I was super athletic all throughout high school.  I never had a problem with my weight because I was active.  I had a schedule and I stuck to it for 18 years.  But once I started my new adventure of college, it wasn't the same.  I had surpassed the freshman 15 and managed to hit that 50 mark.  I had my party days where I would drink and eat junk food with friends every weekend.  I thought that was considered normal but I was wrong.  Fortunately, I was able to find a gym and a good group of people to help me get back into shape.  Leaving college, I wasn't big nor close to obese but I didn't eat healthy either.  

It was when I met the real world… I realized that the high school and college days were far behind me. I am an adult and would start having to do things on my own.  There would be no more classes that made me work out every Tuesday and Thursday.  No more roommates that made healthy meals, or cushion school/work schedule.  I know lived in a world where my schedule fluctuated and I lived on my own.

I stopped going to the gym because my schedule was too crazy, at least that's what I told myself.  I worked 50+ hours a week, so meal prepping was too difficult..again that's what I told myself.  All of this added up to what became of my obesity.  The sad part about this is that I knew that I was doing harm to my health but I never asked for help.  I thought it was all apart of growing up was doing things on my own. I failed myself for not once saying that it's okay to be vulnerable and requesting some assistance.

Why am I doing this?

I'm doing this because there shouldn't be anyone out there afraid to ask for help when it comes to their health.  Being an adult isn't an excuse for living a healthy lifestyle, no matter the situation. 

Women should know that they are not alone and can get help when it comes to living a healthy lifestyle.  

I want to be apart of that.